It’s Friday January 14th. I haven’t been updating this because of my schedule, and I apologize to anybody who thought I had stopped writing. Let’s see where we are…. Ah, Yes! Lot’s has happened since I last blogged actually! My mentor and I are “beefing” and I don’t ever see that coming to an end. I can’t trust people in my camp who are going to attempt to turn my camp against me behind my back. Luckily, I hired another manager which places me with two managers. Lots of crazy fucking music is in the lab that is on another level. I can’t wait to release it all, but I can’t right now. I’m playing ghost and not acknowledging myself as an MC publicly until the fresh material comes. So that’s the last you’ll hear about music for a while. I’m going to go to Boston in a little over a month to see my mother for the first time in close to a year. That will be interesting, to say the least. I’ve been toying with the notion of writing a novel lately, but haven’t found the drive to begin work on it. I’m very busy with work, and am putting up with a lot of bullshit to be able to even have a job. It fuckin sucks being the youngest person in the office. I’m about to go cop some marijuana. Some of Cali’s finest and I am beyond excited for some new strains to be in my drawer. Females are almost non existent in my life at this point due to my busy schedule, and my bad reputation. There is one girl who my heart is telling me to start chasing, but I doubt she’d be into it whatsoever. Not because of my looks, because I am good looking. Not because of my tattoos, cause I imagine she likes the bad boy swag. Not because of where I live because we live pretty close. Not because of my career, or because of my age. Everything fits, she’s into my personality and everything that goes with that as well. I just don’t think she’ll date me because of the “idea” of me. I have become more of an “idea” or “ideologist” than a person. I am now a brand. The same as a corporation. The reason this particular girl would never date me is because of who I am even though she likes who I am. I’m trying to make sense of it on paper, but I can’t seem to get it right. That’s the first time I have ever been incapable of putting an idea on paper. That must mean something special. I just don’t think she’ll date me because of how I’m perceived by others. I purposely make people perceive me this way, it’s part of my brand. It just sucks when people literally cannot get involved with you because of it. I’m perceived as a “player” and a “partyer” which is fun for one night, and maybe for some day time hangouts, but no good as a boyfriend. I don’t blame them for not trusting me, I fucked the trust up with the ones that gave it to me.
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Apparently I’m unapproachable. Whatever. I’m hoping to get more readers on this, I will write twice a day if I have more views. I’m ecstatic about 2011 though, as you should be as well. It’s definitely going to be my year. I’ve never been doing this well and keeping momentum before. I’m going to take over.
